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happiness
Never let the sadness of the past, and the fear of the future, ruin the happiness of your present.
For every minute you are sad, you lose sixty seconds of happiness.
The key to happiness is letting each situation be what it is instead of what you think it should be.
To stay happy is simply to let go of things that make you sad.
Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.
Whenever you do a thing, act as if all the world were watching.
Be happy not because everything is good, but because you can see the good in everything.

Friday, March 27, 2020, 8:48 AM
Helpless....

Once again, I'm back here because I am stress. I am so so so stressed..

No one can probably imagine just how stressed I feel and I don't even know if it's rational or logical for me to feel this amount of stress.

This covid-19 is torturing me. I didn't know this would be such a mental torture and it turned out way worse that I thought it would. I want to take care of mommy but I didn't imagine myself to not be able to take this kind of uncertainty and ambiguity. I hate this sense of uncertainty and ambiguity. I really feel so so unsafe everywhere I go. Can anyone even imagine this? I cannot sit anywhere, eat anywhere, touch my face, and I have to constantly remind myself that I have to wash my hands and sanitise my hands. I feel so trapped in this house now. I hate this feeling... I really feel so so stressed now. I'm supposed to take care of Mommy yet I feel like I'm torturing myself and mommy. Idk what to do... I cannot do any exercise and this is also building my anxiety of my own body image. Everything and everywhere is so stressful.

People tell me to go get checked, I WANT, BUT CAN I?? DO I HAVE A CHOICE? SIGH.

Yes I know mommy is such a concern and I want her to get checked too but this is really so hard! I've been trying but I feel like just giving up already.... Should we just wait for this 14 days to end? Idk.... Sigh I feel so helped and stressed everyday. I'm also not feeling well. Is it because of the stress that I'm not well now? Or I've contracted the virus?? IDK, SEE HOW UNCERTAIN THIS IS? SIGHHHHHH.......

Help. I need help. Idk if I'll go crazy....


Sigh.....