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Never let the sadness of the past, and the fear of the future, ruin the happiness of your present.
For every minute you are sad, you lose sixty seconds of happiness.
The key to happiness is letting each situation be what it is instead of what you think it should be.
To stay happy is simply to let go of things that make you sad.
Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.
Whenever you do a thing, act as if all the world were watching.
Be happy not because everything is good, but because you can see the good in everything.

Sunday, September 26, 2021, 8:58 PM
TWENTY-NINE

Dear blogspot,

I AM TWENTY-NINE!

So many thoughts and feelings! The past decade of this twenties is full of ups and downs. I have gone from crazy to mad, to sad, to depressed, to sane, to at ease, to finally have gained some clarity in mind. The start of my twenties was amazing. I was in NTU and was studying with Yun and though there were some friendship problems here and there, I was happy to go to school everyday and I looked forward! I fell in love with the wrong people at different times and changed to Psychology, thinking that it would be more “fun”. I had my 21st birthday and had so many friends over to celebrate with me. I laughed, I loved, I partied like crazy. I went clubbing and drank lots of alcohol till I was drunk. I went to volunteer at Project Pyaw at Myanmar, and I went to US for exchange. The exchange was beyond amazing and living alone made me feel independent as if I have grown so much. I have hurt myself while in exchange but I survived all the times I was alone and I grew independent.

Mid-twenties, I started my first job at MSF SSO. I met kind souls and colleagues who showered me with care and concern. They were kind, thoughtful, and fun-loving! They were crazy at times, yet kept me sane when work was tough. The clients were not the easiest to manage but I felt so supported most of the time. Then I made the biggest mistake, and I fell to my lowest point. The point where I thought my world crashed, where I thought my life was going to be a mess and that I was not going to become better. I doubted myself and my morals and I thought I would be this miserable for the rest of my life… then I grew and matured. It was also then where I had my first ever experience of grief experience from my grandmother’s passing. My grandmother loved me and she said this wise words to me when I was at the lowest point “Why are you even crying like this?! Do you think he will even know that you’re crying like this here right now? NO. He is somewhere enjoying himself and living his life because you don’t matter to him already. Move on.” It was tough love and I know this stems from great concern as I was drowned in my own sadness and she wanted me to snap out of my own misery. She really made me think and I am very thankful for her. I also started to meditate and I saw the importance of mindfulness. Mindfulness has helped me overcome the lowest point in my life, and helped me gain some clarity into my life situation and not be so trapped in my past. I was living in the past and reliving the memories and it was not helpful at all. I am really glad to have stepped out of it stronger, braver, and wiser.

Late-twenties, I met the love of my life, through Instagram DM ;) He DM-ed me through Instagram while I was on my CMB date and he caught my attention as he is good-looking ;) He started speaking to me while I was travelling in Taiwan and we met in December and got together in January 2019. Our love was not easy at the start as we are very different from each other, but we grew together. We compromised, we listened, and we understood. I love this man and I want to become a better person :)

I have been constantly chasing after pleasures in life and I don’t really stop to look and appreciate the current moment. After my breakfast, I think of lunch, then I think of dinner. I love food and I look forward to my meals. I want to do activities and fill up all my time so I feel more “fulfilled”. I seek pleasures and chase the next pleasurable activity after activity. Life has to be filled with "activities" to be meaningful and for me to feel "happy and fulfilled".


Now i want to pause and sit in the moment. I want to feel contented and joy not through activities, but through reflection and find peace in my life and in being with myself. I watnt to find balance. I have a kick-assed twenties and this is the last year in my twenties. I am excited and looking forward to the adventures life has to offer next <3

With love,
Min.