Devil vs angel

Okay, I know. So many posts in a day, with so many different emotions. Well, human beings are emotional creatures, right?

Anyway, I am not sure what I want to say here, but I just feel like writing down my thoughts.

Dear Sie Min,

What do you want to do in the future?
Do you want to be a psychologist? Actually probably not. I hate reading and I hate writing. This kind of blog writing is different because I would not be judged at all. But academic writing? Not my cup of tea.

Then?

So?

What do you want? I really dont know. I am aimless, directionless, nowhere to go.. I dont want to say this, but I think I am starting to regret my decision of changing to psychology because this is not what I imagined it to be. I wanted to work with children and understand their thoughts. To talk to them and be of some help to them. But none of this is taught in school at all.

So what do I want? I have no idea...

I need to find my meaning in life. I need to live life with a purpose. I need to get myself up. I have no time to waste. This period of time is my golden period to work for my career. I need to do it now, if not it will never happen.

Devil min: Why am I studying psychology now? I am not even enjoying what I am doing now. And time is not in my favor now.. I have no time already. Can I really finish my FYP on time? Can I really score well for it?

Angel min: Min, go for it. This is your last lap. Just GO FOR IT. What are you thinking at your last semester now? Do not let anything hold you back. You have worked hard for the past 4 years. You cannot waste them now. DO NOT WASTE IT. Do you want your time to be wasted just like that? No right NO. So work hard. Tell yourself you can do it. 2 more months to the submission of FYP. November 5. Think of the date. Scare yourself. Remember, after that, YOU WILL BE ENTIRELY FREE. Trust me, you will not regret it. (:



Who will win this battle? We will find out.




Tata!